We Need to Talk: Wylie/Damon (locked to makesudothings

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 Since he'd gotten back from seeing Charlotte, Wylie felt much better about himself and about his current situation. He wasn't afraid of what he was leaving behind or what he was facing. He knew that without a doubt he was making the most solid and true decision of his entire life and he had every intention of seeing it through. He knew about Damon's reluctance to give in completely to what he wanted. Wylie was more than aware of how Damon too wanted to see him live forever, but he saw how when he'd brought it up, Damon almost wanted him to think about it. As if there was a choice for Wylie. He couldn't think of anything else.

Currently sitting on the couch in Damon's place - though it was his too now that he essentially had moved in without exactly saying so - he was fiddling with his guitar. He'd been thinking about how he needed to bring it up, talking about the situation and when they would, but he couldn't quite bring himself to ask. So instead, he was caught in this in between place where he wanted to ask, but was nervous to bring it up. He wasn't sure how the conversation would go.

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"More what?" he prompted gently. He brushed his thumb across Damon's lips and furrowed his brow. "What is it that holds you back because I know it isn't me..."

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"Just...more. It's a very tempting, dark life if you do not want for anything now, even so...it will take you in." He smiled gently. "I thought..if I sire someone, it wouldn't matter...but to think of you as my mate...and then, if I lost you -" He's not sure...he will recover so well.

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Wylie shook his head. He wasn't sure what he meant. He knew that he was stepping into a different kind of life. Something that was frightening. Something dark. But, losing him? "Why would you lose me? Damon," his voice was more stern, urgent, "why do you think you would lose me?"

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"Because you will be so capable...more than now!" he burst out on a breath, holding his face. "You'll be beautiful...and strong and you could have...." He could - "Anyone."

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For the first time, he felt a sense of fear. It wasn't that Damon frightened him, but there was something in his eyes, the way he looked at him. The way the emotion touched him. "Don't you trust me?" he asked, barely above a whisper, "why would I have anyone else if I'm doing this for you?"

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"The last time -" He looked down. "I trust you...I - want to trust you, implicitly. But...this life. What if -"

He can't do this, he realises, and tries to rise.

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Wylie can't control him. He can't pull him back and he knows he is not nearly strong enough. Wylie doesn't care. he stands with him and grabs Damon by his arms, holding him square with him and nearly snarling, "You want to trust me? You don't? When I have I given you reason to believe that I want anything but you?! I know I walked away... I was afraid, but I'm facing you now and asking you to do what I did," he lowered his voice, rough, "come back."

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"I am afraid..." He says this softly, eyes lowered, letting him hold him in place, but he's stiff, limp with it. "I have not...felt that in a long time. And...this fear, is not of what you will do so much as...I may not be enough anymore..."

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Wylie broke with that confession, wrapping his arms around his shoulders and pulling him towards him. His presses his hand to the back of his head, his lips against his temple, then to his ear, nuzzling in against him. "Damon," he whispered to him, soft, reassuring. "you are enough. You will always be enough. You can't ever doubt that."

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Damon shivered...closing his eyes again, listening, feeling but...he felt as though his mind had disconnected from his body. "I..."

He wanted to believe that. "I wasn't...before."

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He gently hushed him, nuzzling against him. He smoothed his hands across his brought shoulders. "Damon..." he felt pained to say it. "Damon, what... what does before have to do with us? I'm not whatever was before..."

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"You're better..." he whispered. "Because you are only mine...and I want it to always be so."

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Wylie kisses his temple, then lower to his cheek, holding him tightly still. "Then have me. I'm offering. I want this... you and I need you to turn me for me to be this.. with you," he shuts his eyes. "Love me..."

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"I do love you," he murmurs firmly, slightly chiding. "I cannot do anything but..."

But this offer, this will to give himself - "I want you...to be mine, forever. That is what I want."

And he was giving it to him? Damon kissed softly along his cheek, to his lips, breath soft, fluttering warmth to his skin, "I love you...yes. I will."

Turn him. If he was sure of this, then...why hesitate?

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There was relief that washed through him as he finally agreed. Wylie hadn't been expecting him to fight him on this. Not so hard at least. He wasn't sure what he thought he was doing, either trying to protect Wylie or protect himself. He pulled back a little, just enough to look at him, "why were you fighting me on this? Is it all because you thought that if I was like you, you'd suddenly be not enough?"

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"...Yes." Damon closed his eyes. "You can't deny the reason you found me so fascinating was because of what I am, love."

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Wylie laughed, lightly and a little sadly, but he laughed. He shook his head and smirked, something about this far too amusing. "You remember how it was, the first time? What I was looking for was a man who could hold me now. I was looking for a man that would be strong enough not really physically but mentally to be dominant. I..." he paused, trying to think of the right way to say this, "I too often am the one playing that role and I was tired of working so hard for other people's pleasure and I need to be, well, strapped down and mindless for a while. That is what fascinated me about you. The rest of it? What you are? Well, that was merely the explanation."

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Damon lifted his face, his eyes searching. He could tell when one lied, but he wasn't looking for that. What his expression was, was of slight awe. Because he knew...deep down, he had felt this. But he worried anyway. Because - "I love you."

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"And then," he continued, just smiling at him, even as he seemed to understand, "I found that you were willing to give a little. You compromised with me and not just in bed, though that's where it started. Next thing I knew, regardless of what you are, I was finding myself completely attached and that's when I ran."

Wylie brought him close again, hugging him tightly as he continued, "I don't run from things that aren't a threat to break through. Being close to someone is... terrifying is the only word I can come up with. But I came back not because I was fascinated with what you are, but because I found something better in you. Something that... you didn't see my past. You didn't see anything but right now and you were so damn amused by rampant emotions..."

Again, he pulled back to look at him, hands moving to frame his face, "So can you believe me now? It never had anything to do with what you are... just what you made me feel and what you felt for me. How could I ever leave the only thing that's ever made me completely happy, without conditions? If being like you is what it takes to stay with you forever, because I can't... no, I won't let you die with me..."

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Damon stiffened a little in rememberance...yes, that had been hard. He feels it more now, of course. But even with the warning...when Wylie left him, "I worried you might not come back. I know that is...ludicous, but..."

He smiled as he went on, about to shake his head...but then his face was held and a soft sigh escaped at the gentle touch instead. "I..."

He did...he wanted to, and he did. "Yes. I do." His fingers slowly curled against Wylie's hands on him, smiling, "I do not want to be without you. Not now...and not ever. If you say this is is...this is what you wish. I will. I will turn you.."

He tilted his head up slightly, sought out his lips, kissing him softly, "Mine forever."

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Wylie felt even more relieved because it seemed like Damon actually believed it this time. There wasn't any risk of Wylie leaving him. What was he going to do? He was going to be lost in this new world and if he didn't have Damon, he'd have nothing. If humans were good enough for him now, while he was human, what would make him that humans would satisfy later? And as for others like Damon... no. That was stupid.

He leaned in and kissed him, just as he gave and agreed. Wylie wrapped one arm around his shoulders, pulling him against him and bowing Damon backwards. He shut his eyes and pulled away, lips still brushing his, "I love you. And I know you won't leave me, too."

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"Where would I go, if not with you?" he scoffed. "I have no desire to leave my mate, thank you." He smiled up at him gently, touching his cheek as he nudged his nose to his, amused at their position. "Mm..."

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"Then what the hell were you so worried about, sugar?" Wylie, now teasing him. He playfully nudged his nose against his in return. Damon was far too easily amused by anything Wylie did and part of him knew it was because Damon so often took the dominant position between them. It certainly didn't bother Wylie.

He dipped his head down lower, kissing Damon's neck playfully.

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"Oh, shut up," he laughed, nuzzling his nose to his hair as he kissed his neck. "Nn..." He felt so good...so warm. "I love you....so much. You are everything."

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That made Wylie laugh and he actually bit Damon's neck that time. "No, you shut up... don't be stupid," he teased. "I love you," he purrs.