"I shot this to shit," he said bluntly, "I'm fucking stupid. I know. I'm afraid of being close because the only people I've ever had either beat me or died. In return, people I get close to, I treat like shit. I can try and be better, but I can't promise it will always work."

He looked down and sighed. Shutting his eyes he steeled himself before looking up at him again. "I want to be back. I don't want to leave you... I don't want to keep doing this to you either. I... I'm sorry, Jona." He looked pained to say that. It wasn't easy on him to admit when he was wrong and he had still failed to explain how he really felt about this man that was once his lover. He wasn't sure if he could say what he was thinking about him, what he was feeling.